The first month was hard. I wrote about my first month experience in my last post. I’m not saying the second month is easy but it’s a lot easier then the first month! I feel like I’m finally getting my life together.
Me saying that I’m getting my life back together is a loose statement. Although I was cleared to workout at my last OB appointment at 6 weeks post Cesarean, I have yet to workout, besides walking. This isn’t due to laziness or not wanting to, believe me I do. I use to workout everyday pre baby and really want to get back into it. I have yet to figure out how though. My baby is a great night sleeper (no complaints) but will not nap during the day. If he does it’s a few small 10-15 min naps. Sometimes not at all. Working out with an awake newborn isn’t easy. I haven’t figured out how to do it yet! So for now the walks will have to tie me over!
I also have not caught back up on my sleep. I say my baby sleeps at night, which he does, but I’m a breastfeeding mom and he still needs to eat. My boobs also need to be emptied at night! He will do one long stretch at the beginning of the night for about 4-5 hours, then 3 hours, then 1-2 hour spans until we wake up. Which is a lot better then every hour or two all day and night the first month! I am definitely sleeping more now but I still wake up a lot to check on him and have turned into a very light sleeper and hear his every move and every noise he makes.
I am getting more organized in my life though and have a pretty set routine everyday.
At 6 weeks I started pumping so that he would get use to the bottle. I figure I will have to have my boyfriend or someone else feed him at some point. I was disappointed. My baby gets so much milk when nursing. He comes up coughing with milk all over his face, but when I pump I get 1-3 ounces for an entire day pumping. That’s not even close to what he needs to eat. I’m just not responding well to the pump. Part of me is happy because I like nursing him and I really don’t want to go back to work, but my boyfriend would like me to work part time. Financially I need to work. I just wish I could be a stay at home mom. I hate the idea of someone else watching him. It breaks my heart to give him to someone and miss aspects of him growing up. What if I miss the first time he giggles, or crawls, or says his first word. It just doesn’t sit well with me.
I have tried eating foods to increase my milk supply. If you google ways to increase your milk supply a million things come up. Honestly, I don’t see that anything helps much. The only thing I noticed that really does help is oatmeal, coconut milk and water and increasing your calorie and water intake.
Time is going by so fast. I can’t believe next week will be two months already. He has changed so much in the last couple weeks. He is much happier since I cut out dairy and started him on probiotics, gas drops, and reflux medication. He is awake and not crying the majority of the day now, which is a big change from the first month. He smiles now. He repeats vowel sounds and copies us when we stick out our tongue at him! I just love watching him grow and develop and seeing all the new things he is learning.
Next week is our two month check up. He will get his first bout of vaccines, which I’m dreading. He also has his second ultrasound appointment and first Orthopaedic doctor appointment for his mild hip dysplasia. Hopefully that all goes well.
Although it’s tough at the beginning and I’m sure throughout their lives, I love being a mom and I never thought I could love someone so much. He fills my heart completely.