First Time Mom Nerves

Today marks 39 weeks gestation. If you have been following my blog then you know that this is a big deal to us!

As I move into my last week I can’t help to think about these last nine months. My pregnancy has been challenging to say the least, let’s recap…  I found out I was pregnant at 6 weeks, which was a surprise, at 7 weeks started having pain and spotting, at 8 weeks I had an emergency ultrasound because they were worried I miscarried. At that appointment I found out I had three large fibroids causing my pain. Thankfully baby was ok. Not only that but my morning sickness was so bad I couldn’t drive to work without pulling over 2-3 times. The pain continued and so did the spotting. The fibroids grew and started pressing on my organs. Before Thanksgiving I got into a car accident that just magnified my pain and started my battle with contractions. I was sent to labor and delivery for monitoring. From Thanksgiving until New Years I was barely able to work. My work even put me on bed rest for a week, told me I wasn’t able to perform my job. I called in several times a week and laid on the couch crying most days. Then I went in for a routine ultrasound and appointment on January 5 and never left. The vaginal ultrasound showed that I was 80% effaced with significant funneling, at that point I was 28 weeks. They sent me to labor and delivery again and I was hooked up to monitors contracting every 2 min. I then had IV bags of fluids, high dose IV Magnesium, other medication to stop contractions, and steroid shots to strengthen babies lungs. With other complications coming up while I was in the hospital (respiratory, cardiac, and thyroid issues) this turned into a 40 day hospital bed rest. They released me at 34 weeks for home bed rest until I deliver. Home bed rest was much better then hospital bed rest, but the contractions and pain continued. They had us tour the NICU at 28 weeks and told us they were saving a bed for our baby. We filled out his birth paperwork and talked to anesthesia. It was all so surreal and emotional. So to make it to 39 weeks today is a huge accomplishment after such a physical and emotional journey these last 9 months.

I could still go into labor this week but I do have a scheduled Cesarean for a week from today, March 27. Which is my actual due date. Baby boy is large (8.5 pounds at 38 weeks) and breech. So a Cesarean is necessary. The plan is to try to remove the largest fibroid during my Cesarean as long as it’s not too vascular. The largest one is the one which causes the most issues for me. If they can’t remove it then I will need to return 3 months later for another surgery. All of this and my birth plan was originally for a natural, medication free birth! Life definitely likes to throw surprises at you sometimes.

My first time mom nerves are kicking in. Not only am I going to be in charge of a small human in a week but I am not thrilled about a Cesarean. I have had challenging surgeries in the past with tough recoveries and complications (ruptured appendix hospitalized for a month with a home nurse for a month, melanoma, and adult tonsil surgery). I don’t do well with anesthesia or pain medication and I’m worried about how I will feel trying to recover, take care of a newborn, and learn how to breastfeed.

I know things will all work out fine. I will get to meet this baby boy in a week and I couldn’t be happier. I have so much love for him already.

Thank you so much for following my blog so far. I will document my Cesarean experience and after I deliver I will continue to write about my ups and downs as a first time mom.

4 thoughts on “First Time Mom Nerves

  1. Hi! Four-time C-section mom here. I know you’re worried about the birth in a few days, but after everything you’ve endured during your difficult pregnancy, you’re going to do great. You’re a strong person to power through to 39 weeks after all that! Best wishes on your upcoming delivery!

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  2. I am so sorry you have had such a rough pregnancy. I just wanted to let you know that while c-sections are not ideal, they are also not the worst thing in the world. Recovery takes time, but it’s not as bad as you might think. I hope everything goes well and you have a smooth recovery.

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